Friday is here again and man, is it a pretty one. (Depending
on where you are. the PAC NW is delivering today!!) Todays post is a bit long, so if you’re like
me and have the attention span of a gnat for online reading, I apologize… but
read it anyway, you make me happy!
Last week I wrote about self-talk and about how the message
you’re approaching life with can dictate who you become. This message resonates
really deeply with what I am trying to do with this blog as I mentioned. There
was something missing though, the idea is/was there but I needed one more
component. I knew I had already heard this message and I just needed to get to
that nook n cranny in my brain to remember just where I saw it, and replay it.
So I just finished my last term for my AA and graduated with
honors, (Shameless self-promotion) where one of my last classes was Speech
Communications. The Professor, Heather, had shown us this video which I thought
was cute at the time but mostly it washed over me. I had already been writing
this blog and doing my thing etc. I am
realizing that video, the message in that video is the quintessential message
for me and my TFFG project.
The Jist:
Amy Cuddy is an American social psychologist known for her
research on stereotyping and discrimination, emotions, power, nonverbal
behavior, and the effects of social stimuli on hormone levels. What does this
have to do with me, my blog and my new outlook? Everything: My whole need for this blog is about forced
perspective and a manipulated persona. This video is about 20 minutes but it’s
great, I hope you can find the time to hear it through; my thoughts afterword
will make more sense.
Here’s why this video was bouncing around in my head
unbeknownst to me, because the reality of me, this blog and my new mission is
that it IS fake… on a level. All this positivity, up-beat and forward
thinking, get er done life is great attitude?? That’s not me by definition, so
what I am doing IS, in fact, faking it until I become it. Those of you who know
me well, know that I can be cynical, mean and negative; I’m not saying all the
time, but it’s in me and was certainly a bigger part of my world view, so that’s what I was becoming… more and
more every day especially with the huge waves of heartache I had been facing.
That being said, (and I’m slopping tears on my face as I type this) some of you
have come to me and made it a point to tell me how you see the change, that I
am positive and giving off light. WHAT COULD BE MORE AWESOME THAN THAT??? It’s
working goddammit, I am becoming it.
Closing thoughts, this quote from her during the video…
“Having your core identity taken from you, nothing makes you
feel more powerless than that”
I don’t know about you but this resonated with me so much and on so many levels. What is it in your life that
you want to become? How do you get there, and when you finally do and the world
takes it away from you what are you LEFT with?
So… how do I go out
there and start to... FEEL BIGGER. BE BIGGER
How do I stop being
my sickness? How do I not become my losses?
How do I not let the
pain in my HEART take EVERYTHING AWAY from me?
How do I get up, TODAY, and be MORE than I was YESTERDAY?
I’M GONNA Stand
UP, Stretch out, and DECIDE
that today I
AM THE HEAVY WEIGHT CHAMPION
of my own
existence and person
AND NOBODY
Is gonna. Knock. Me. Down.
AGAIN
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